And I’m sad we didn’t get a picture yesterday but yesterday we had one of those moments I hope we never forget. 

Life is about taking risks and we did that, even if it was just us getting up in front of a group of people and singing some silly song :) We messed up, we may have sounded awful, but it was fun and amazing and I love that we did that! 

Here’s to us taking risks :)

On days like this, I appreciate our blog the most. 

Having a bad day, I might not reply to texts, not in a talking mood. 

Dear Fickle, 

1. I reblogged that devil trap skirt to our wishlist blog because… well, I need this. 

2. I love when you reblog things because you know I’ll love them, it makes me adore our friendship even more. 

3. Sebastian Stan. Ovaries. Gone. 

I love you

Aquatic

Fickle bitch, 

Why do you keep posting that awful couple on our tumblr!? You know it makes me cry!

Humph

Aquatic Masochist 

I miss you and I need you. My life is consuming me and I feel like I’m going to die. I just want to cry but I can’t here and I just need you. I know I put on a brave face but for some stupid reason this Brennan thing is killing me and I don’t know how to feel okay again. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel okay again or if I even can fall in love again. Sometimes I lie and say I was never in love with him, our love was tainted but now I know I’m still in love with him and hes gone and I don’t know what do. I need you so bad, I need you to watch crap tv with me and sit with me while I smoke and make things okay like you always do. This is tearing me apart and I’m an idiot for letting it. I need you so bad right now, I hate this tight chest not being able to breathe feeling and I want it to stop. I want to stop loving people, I want people to stop leaving me. I want to never feel like this. Why do I miss him so much? Why do I need people? I hate needing people and I needed him and he’s gone and I’m stuck being me. The crazy little blonde who will always be lost. I hate this and I need you. I need to be sober and sit with you and get this all out because when I’m sober I run away from everything and when I’m drunk I cry by myself and I just need you to let me vent so maybe I can stop letting this kill me inside. I don’t know if any of this makes sense but I need you because I’m letting my heart break kill me and I’m sorry I have sucked when you were sad I just never let myself feel sad about boys and now that I am I realize how heartles and awful I was. I don’t know how to live with this. I want my feelings for him to stop. I miss you and I need you to help me. You know I’m desperate (and inebriated) when I’m asking for help. Everything is killing me and breaking me. I was talking about my baby ealier and I hate thinking about that but I admitted out loud that I kinda wanted that baby and now I’m mad and upset and I feel like I’m drowning in everything. Why does everything hurt?

You’re posting me drunk >.< lol I’m drunk again! and I miss you and you’re not answering my call. I miss you :( anf I love you :)